okay. i can't stand it no longer.

the thing is, i don't believe that both of them are in the bottom 3.

iiish.

annoying viewers who doesn't appreciate talented people like J _ N & H _ D _!

i frigging HATE them okay? like diverge all my focus on the BIO test to this worrying thingy. i don't believe i'm even telling this to all of you. it was TOO HEARTBREAKING to see them in the TIGHT situation they have to endure. AHHH.

i hope you're fine, H _ D _, my dahhling. i was paranoid after the whole thing passes.

i told myself that i'm ready to see u leave, to see your goodbye video clip, to see you saying thanks to ur fans and all. that's a desperado moment. i was shocked. scared for u. but u came out clean. it was TOO good to be TRUE. but i LOVE YOU.

yea. yea. does not make any sense at all. haha.

anyways, SYIKK & QSHAA RAWKS lah.

i mean it, seriously cause they're like so effing NICE to me, can?

accompany me to the roadshow today. ahh. those baby mittens & socks RAWKS.

haha.

maybe that's the WHOLE reason why H _ D _ tenunged at me for a while before huluring me his hand to handshake it. maybe he thinks i'm like a PSYCHOpath or sumthing because it's BABY stuffs. haha. but it still ROCKS right? woohoo.

yea. and the cameraman was like stucked to me 24/7 for THE WHOLE damn DAY. i was like frigging pissed cause i wasn't suppose to be there. i was suppose to be at my GEOG project. ahh. i'm sorry if u guys think i'm HOT today or sumthing, but i'm not gonna say anything to the CAMERA. i felt like i was being chased after paparazzis.

yea.

H _ D _ tenunged me, like as if he saw me before! he remembered lahh. his SMILE. ahhh. cair. and and and he hulur his hand directly after that with his silver marker to shake mine. he HULURKAN tau. not i ask unlike at PP and all. it was like a soft and smooth handshake. i dunno how to describe it. so cair ahh. the tenungan that's like so LONG maybe cause of the MITTENS. BABY mittens as u can see.

WHY BABY mittens, if u're asking me? cause i juz jump in last minute thanks to syikk & qshaa's credit, ya know. SO NICE. syikk belanja me COKE lagi. ahh. love u guys.

let's be groupies. i love love love hanging out with u guys. byk karenah but FUN. ehh. the banner making contest. WHEEEEE. i WANT to join u guys, kayy? don't forget meee!

anyways, we make friends with noodle's sister.

haha. syikk exchanged numbers with her to get tix. that's like good thinking right? haha. we took pictures with her and all. she's NICE. NISA's her name.

p.s. she said H _ D _'s NICE. me: (in my heart) melting! of course, kan?

ouh yea. i love love love J _ N even more.

but not till the extent where i'd leave H _ D _ behind and forgot about him.

haha. cause he's so NICE. i was given the task to give the baby mittens to Jon as well. so yea, he was 2nd in line. he was looking at me like he knows me. HE RECOGNISED ME! i gave him and the crew was like asking WITH A CAMERA, "wad u got there?". he was like "umm. i dunno. finger puppets maybe?" he doesn't know what it was. anyways his first reaction was, "SO CUTE!" then i juz SMILED. yeeha. nice right? yea. so he clutched my right hand with his left! ahh. it was a TIGHT grip okay? hahaha.

so yea. after that, we went to the crowd. then we decided to go around to the back to meet the idols going back to the bus. not that we'd chase them. and there goes the CAMERA again shoving into our faces. AHHH. annoying. so we covered our faces with the poster. i got close-up pics OF H _ D _ and J _ N .!! haha jealous? so yea. anyways, one fan took pic WITH J _ N! UNFAIRNESS! but after that, i was there to witness everything. i was like shouting J _ N _ T _ A _! he turned and saw me. he SMILED at me like the smile that he KENAL me u know. he was looking at me like he wants to let me take pics WITH HIM. or hug him for that matter. he was like smiling wih those eyes saying, "come here, lah". but then THAT STUPID SECURITY GUARD was around him cause he was the LAST to leave. haha. so he HAD to go but he was like whispering the word "sorry" to ME and he SHOUTs to ME, "SEE YOU NEXT TIME." "BYE!" with a sorry and sad face.

i was APALLED! he remembered me and was so effing NICE to me can? "SEE YOU NEXT TIME?" waaaah. he wants so see me NEXT TIME. iiiiish.

P _ U _ was also nice to me. even though i think he should be eliminated lah. all the popularity people. GET OUT alright? haha. but anyways, he's nice. he layan my merepekness okay? i was like telling the idols that the gifts was from the three of us and he was like uhuhuhuh. u know his laughter? the funny one? yea. anyways, i dunno why but i salute him u know. he was betulkanning his cap then he saw and salute me back too and say, "i believe in you," wad was THAT all about lah? memalukan and "i believe in you"? wad does that mean? i'm not even in NS lah. haha. he's so LAME lah. juz like he layan me at TM. i was like breathing deeply. "mhhhh. pheeeew." to calm myself down. and he thught i was like sakit or sumthing. so he said, "are u okay?" then i gave him thumbs up. then he was like "wooah. dun scare me leh." i juz smiled and walk off. he so LAME lah.

J _ A _ K _ M is always the same. and the others are all okay-okay lah. only three idols WOW-ed me. haha. i LOVE. LOVE okay.

J _ N & H _ D _, i LOVE you guys.

so effing nice.

p.p.s. my english is like KARAT for this post cause i'm too ecstatic to type in proper english. yea. LIT CA and MATHS CA coming. AHH. RUN FOR YOUR LIVES.

p.p.p.s. i LOVE u guys, syikk & qshaaa. so FUN. FUN. muz win banner-making contest kayy? and yea. stop the HAKIM craze. haha. but FUN jugak eh.