SARANG HAE. SIWONNIE OPPA.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

right.

this is dedicated to those who have given me presents today.

* marissa & aisha for the cute YELLOW star, the beautiful yet meaningful heart card and TOBLERONE.
- at least now my pink star has a friend. =))

* atiqah b. for the wonderful, touching card that i almost wanna cry when i read it with the 'walk the line' vcd & also the merci chocolate. =))
- the card is the MOST GREATEST PRESENT that i've ever received.i can't deny that. =))

* nazlyna & steph yap for the wonderful, sophisticated belt with the body scrub which is supposedly to be decoration and chocolate.
- so suhweet of you. i'm gonna keep the belt till i get married and i'm gonna wear it. SERIOUS. =))

* syaz, farah & yanti for the not-bad cutted card, the flower necklace and the beautiful brown earrings that I LOVE!!
- damn. those earrings make me wanna eat them. it looks DELICIOUS. =))

* fadhilah, atiqah k., hajjar & nafisah for OH MY GAWD HUMONGOUS (is that how u spell it?) YELLOW spongebob squarepants. i swear marissa is jealous.
- it is so squishy and cuddly. LOVE it! =))

* nadia for the cushy cushion which says 'love you'. yes. i still do love you my darling.
- the paper bag is BEAUTIFUL. with the small card. similar pics on the front page. sweet of you. =))

* pei hsin & chesed for the lovely scary screw you voodoo doll & purplish rubber band.
- i will keep it nicely. and poke it when i want to do it. haha. =))

* sonia for the 3 wonderful flavours of TOBLERONE.
- i have NEVER eaten toblerone before. so be very honoured that you shared with me sonia. =))

* my dad, brother, mother, auntie for the wondeful gifts that i do not wish to mention cause it's too precious.
- LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! =))

* mr R. for the pearl jewelry set that i wanted.
- i'll treasure it like i'll treasure you. i promise. =))

* ameera for the dangling earrings.
- even though it is cheapskate like u said, i still love it. it's the thought that counts. =))

* MIMI, my lovely cousin for her billabong pencil case & keychain.
- have a nice trip to negeri sembilan! enjoy yourself there. and thanks gurl for remembering my birthday too early. i got something for you tmr. =))

notice all the smiles that i typed every sentence.
it shows my happiness & appreciation to those who had given me birthday gifts.
it is truly a HAPPY HAPPY DAY!!

** p.s. last year theme was giraffes. this year is CHOCOLATES - TOBLERONE & YELLOW stuffs. haha. but i still LOVE IT YOU GUYS!!

- awaiting gifts from caebabug & co., kar mun & GERMAINE.
hehe.

yes. demanding me. =))

love the little outing i had with fadhilah after school today, the catching up with syaz & atiqah b. and not forgetting the phenomena lost of my adidas wallet. i was on the verge of crying. thanks farah, baz and FADHILAH.

love you guys.

this is definitely gonna be a good year!!!

- gonna cut my TWEETY BIRD cake now. yes. TWEETY BIRD. i ordered it okay. i LOVE TWEETY BIRD. FACE IT!!!

tic toc no it's the clock again at
7:26 PM

Monday, May 22, 2006

SUCKED

BIG

ARSE-

HOLE!

.PERIOD.

tic toc no it's the clock again at
8:00 PM

Saturday, May 20, 2006

3 more days to HOT 15. whee~

tic toc no it's the clock again at
2:56 PM

Friday, May 19, 2006

why?

Why'd you do that to me?

Haven't you hurt me enough to see me cry?

You're the one that i turn to,

the one that i care about,

the one that i've fallen in love with

yes, you, it's you-u-u-u.

Though you've never said

those three words to me,

i'd still take you seriously.

Of all the dozens guy that came

in my life, you're the one,

you're the one i wanna be with.

So don't, don't, don't ever leave me.

Cause when you leave me,

i'll lose the other half of me

and it'll leave a big cut in my heart

or maybe,

i'll just give up on love

and never shall i be in love again.

(whispers) never ever again.

[pssst] i'm truly, madly, deeply in LOVE right now with the guy of my dreams. but now, it's a reality.

tic toc no it's the clock again at
6:42 PM

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

hmm.
i guess this pass few days have been a wreck.
even without CAs.
I've been going home late for the past few days and i tell u, i HATE it so damn bloody much.
thinking of changing my blogskin though.
the window is kind of small and difficult to post big pictures.

as u know, my beloved grandfather passed away on friday at 1.20am that's why i didn't go to school on that day.
very awkward and weird i should say cause i never pon school in my whole life before.
i always attend every single day.
the mc-less face.

when i received the call from my mum at 1.25am, i couldn't sleep no longer.
my mum went home while my uncles take my grandpa's body from the mortuary.
my mum reached home at about 2.15am and she told me to get ready to go to my grandpa's house and help out all the stuff that is needed.
so i bathe, which in this case, a very VERY long time.
so when we left home, it is about 4.35am.
we reached my grandpa's home about 5.15am.
i tell u, i tried to sleep but amazingly, i can't.
maybe it is because my grandpa juz died is the reason.

so i wear tudong very halphhazardly(umm? correct?).
and uglily. (WHY???)
it was an ugly sight.
yea.
so i help buy flowers to tabur on top of his grave later on.
i saw posters of Workers' Party and i love 'em.
at ang mo kio.
LoL.

so i help arrange the chairs and stuff until it is 8am.
that's when lotsa people come.
and my grandpa's body came.
so blah blah blah.
i cried even though i promised not to.
how can i be so cold when someone i love passed away?
damn. i hate myself for even crying now.
this make me wants to become a doctor so i can help out those elderly to detect their illnesses before it's too late like my grandpa.
i will. i can. i have better score well in bio.

so yea, we went to pusara abadi to bury him.
but before that, all of us pray for him at masjid al-firdaus.
and i tell you, my sadnesses evaporate cause the masjid is near CDA (civil defence academy)
and u know my lovable feelings towards civil defence people.
i tell u, it is in my genes.
i got 5 HOT civil defence officers' name.
shall not type here.
scared he will find his name here and be shocked.

why do i look far when i have someone near me?
someone with the letter R.
sure nafisah know.
he's all that i want in a guy.
but i'm not THAT interested in him.
he has been my sms companion and so forth.
he's such a gentleman.
but for all i know, maybe he's not sincere.
but, i shall give it a go.
known him for 1 1/2 weeks.
not rushing things though.
yea. that's abt it.

but still, the chai chee guy rocks my world.
ouh. whatever.

anyway, i love my grandpa a lot.
a lot.
much much much more than my grandma.
psychopath. (oops)

more interesting upcoming event.
- NE Learning Journey
- Kenduri for my arwah atuk (7th day)
- Outing with Mimi and bik mas to watch MI3
- Gema Temasek
- Danse Fe'line Sur Cordes

woo.
hope this week is gonna get better!

** p.s. someone wants tuition from me. 'Can Can' are u sure? But can't confirm though. maybe my a maths will suck nxt time round.

tic toc no it's the clock again at
8:43 PM

Thursday, May 04, 2006

i have come to a conclusion that when i see him again,
i will say all the feelings that is bottled up inside me.

ehem.
this is how it goes.

hey.
i've met u a lot of times before.
and i wanna say straight to your face that i like you.
not a minor one.
it is a major one.
i dun wanna know and care about your reaction towards my confessions.
u can juz keep it in ur heart.
u may laugh it out and spread the news like wildfire but all i wanna say is that i'm glad i've told u all this.
if not i will regret every moment that i did not see you and when i saw you, i did not do anything about it.
i'm fed-up with guys not making the first move.
then, i will.

take it or leave it.

then.. i walk off.
how does that sound?
tag my board for reply and comments.

** impt.
the man that changed my life.
the man that meant almost everything to me.
the man that took care of me and accompany me when i'm in need.
my grandfather.

he's going to leave the world soon.
he's in a serious condition.
hell be gone.

forever.

then what'd i do?
juz walk away and pretend everything's okay.
the tears that are shed by me is covered from everyone.
the happy-smiling face is juz a get-up to blind my unhappiness.

yet, life has to move one.
and i will, of course.
little by little.
GONE.

i love u, atuk.

tic toc no it's the clock again at
9:05 PM