SARANG HAE. SIWONNIE OPPA.

Friday, March 31, 2006

i love qah.
she helps me.
she cares about me.
she understands me.
she's there for me always.
she listens to my blabbering.
i love qah.

i love naz.
she cares about me.
she relaxes me down.
she's there for me, always.
she listens to my rambling (for 45 mins)
she's cute, unpredictable and absolutely SWEET.
i love naz.

bottomline: i love both of them. they've been by my side always. they'll always be there for me. i had fun memories spent with both of you today. i appreciate it a LOT. ESPECIALLY u, qah. the experience you and i had with the SCDF guys that are OH SO NOT CUTE at the KFC. the experience where u were shocked when the lift door opened at the industrial building. the experience where both of us listened to britney spears' song at Marine Parade Library. the experience when u are always thirsty and the solution is, listen to me talk instead. YEEHA!!

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them. *heaaarts*

- sorry Chesed for being fussy and quite rude just now.
i admit it but i was very stressed just now that i nearly broke out in tears.
i hope u understand. ilu.

- thanks nafisah for calling Mrs Tan.
ur help was greatly appreciated.

i'll end off with three personal quotes.

"i thought i had a great bunch of friends. but it turns out there are only 1/3 that actually cared."

"friends are always there by your side. especially when they need you. not those who left u when u are in the middle of a crisis."

"there's always this "thing" called members. but now, i don't even think they deserved to be called that because as members, we share responsibility. but mine didn't."

** these quotes were not meant to hurt anyone in one way or the other. this is where i poured my heart out and let my thoughts be heard. i'm sure this can be "repaired" and works towards something better in life. =))

tic toc no it's the clock again at
10:40 PM

Saturday, March 04, 2006

today was a psychotic day.
but it was fun though. =))
the hindustan today at vasantham central at 4pm was very enjoyable.
cause there's ARJUN RAMPAL & SUNEIL SHETTY!
two of my most favourite actors of bollywood.
they're HOT.
and in this story, ARJUN DAMN HOT!
seriously.

fine.
the psychotic day is not abt the hindustan story.
oh btw, qah cut her hair!!
i wanna see whether she's HOT!!
on monday. ehehehe.

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
My personality reflects me
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

woohoo.
words of wisdom. =))

anyway, after watching the hindustan movie,
at 7pm, i asked my mum to go out to esplanade.
as it is a saturday night, there should be a gig.
we shuld be one HOT family banging our heads during the gig.
haha.

my mum refused.
claiming that she was full after eating pizza.
too lazy to go out.
right mama.
RIGHT.

so he asked my brother to go out with me instead.
at first i don't want, but after thinking about it,
okay also mah.
so we got ready.
pray, then leave.

we took bus 83.
stopped at sengkang interchange.
then took MRT to Dhoby Ghaut.
cause i wanna go PS.
so we walked around PS for around 1 and 1/2 hours.
ouh yeah, i met mumtaz and jasmine tan.
they juz went home from red cross i guess.
then, my brother says my breath stinks.
so we went down to cold storage and bought sweets.
THANKS A LOT.

then we talk and talk and be crazy at the mall.
u guys SHOULD know how exactly i behave.

anyway, after that, we went outside PS towards orchard.
suddenly i feel like okay, i wanna go home late.
for ONCE.
so we walked in front of the istana.
my brother says that behind those trees, there are monkeys.
i was lyk.
are u serious? nonsensical. if there is monkey, they will jump about right.
then my brother claimed that the police are taking care of them.
wadeva. did he mean that monkeys are more important than the president?
LAME. LAME abang.

so we walked and walked.
bought drinks from 7 eleven.
big gulp.
we wanted to insert ice.
so my brother kept pressing the ice button.
ice came tumbling down.
and then he move the cup away.
the ice was like still coming down.
and it drops to the floor, where this guy was mopping.
HAHAHA.
he gave us 'THAT' look.
we juz paid for the big gulp and mashed potatos and rushed outside.
*smirks*

then we continue on walking.
saw lotsa mats.
who SMOKES.
got some of them cute but too bad, they SMOKE.
they have to sacrifice their smoking for me, juz like what my dad did to my mum. =))
so sweet and romantic.

anways, when we passed the mats, my bro act as if he was talking on the phone to avoid eye contact with the mats.
ouh.
his WONDERFUL technique.
and me?
well, i juz have to look around(up and down, left and right) to avoid contact as well.
so funny. and while i was doing that, i was talking to my brother.
so i guess they will think we are nuts.
then we passed a group of makcik.
so it's my turn to pretend to talk on the phone instead, kim.
after that we decided to go home.
it was 10+.

so we took the train.
and stopped at sengkang station instead of punggol cause my brother wants to walk home.
so yea.
it was 10.25pm.
we walked and walked.
since i'm such a clever HOT girl, i brought along camera.
an we took lotsa pics.
WACKO pics mind u.
i was pretending to feed the bushes(mat afro).
my attempts of taking pictures while i was jumping when we were walking through the overheadbridge.
the overheadbridge was very very empty.
no one was present.
so i act as though i was a beggar.(hehe. african beggar; the poem that i did for sec 2 CA Lit)
and my brother lied down on the floor.
i was jumping endlessly for a good photo.
but my energy has gone to waste.
cause ther's no nice pictures developed.
hmmm.

then while we were walking, we were acting like maniacs till we reach my block.
then i was like, "EH? IS THIS OUR BLOCK?" *scratching my head*
my bro was like, "YES LAH BODOH."
so FINE.
we reached home, i blogged and i slept straightaway. =))

tic toc no it's the clock again at
11:38 AM

Friday, March 03, 2006

waaalah.

biology is totally FUN fun FUN today.
not because i get to take pictures of myself.
i get to take the experiment that i was working on about enzyme which is like totally COOL!
there's one test tube when i added iodine, it turns purple!
woohoo!!
PURPLE. get it?
if only i can bring it home.
zan, u spoilt my art at the sink. :(
nolah.
juz kidding. :)

after school ends, i waited for qah outside her class.
she was busily packing for the indian festival.
and i teased her about sumthing she will experience on monday. *winks*
which is oh-so-unpleasant.

ouh yea.
she needs to buy her lunch.
i volunteered to accompany her cause it is FRIDAY.
and on FRIDAY there'll be lotsa guys which is oh-so-unpleasant.
we went to KFC in the first place.
but looking at the long queue and lotsa people in it, we decided to go macs which is way way emptier compared to kfc.
we got a seat which is close to a dustbin.
DUSTBIN.
lucky for me, the bin is not so noisy like the one i experienced at compass point.

qah was like asking me, should she take the risk of buying the food(take-away) and rush home?
i was like i dunno.
she did the right choice by eating at macs cause a few minutes later, all the malay guys radak out of the mosque.
she's so lucky.
can u imagine qah being squashed by the mats & pakciks leaving the mosque?
she'll be this super super small kid being radak around.
u make me use the work radak, qah.
sheeshness.

i ate mc spicy ordered by qah with ice lemon tea cause i never drink gassy drinks. =))
such a good good girl.
she ate the same meal only that she never change the drink.
there shall be bubbles in ur nose.
ehehehe.
we talked a lot.
especially me.
about my cuzzins and brother and my macs experiences which i am ashamed of.
but surprisingly, i finished my mc spicy with fries faster than qah.
and yes qah, i sedar i look hodoh/horrible when i eat burger.
i am not fit to have a boyfriend cause he will be malu and disgusted of me.
woohoo.
then i shall be virgin forever.
umm.
that's a promise i dun think i can keep though.
L0L.

i had to call my mum and informed her i'm eating at macs.
she was like, "APER? NAK MAKAN LUAR?"
she was shouting on the phone.
SHOUTING!
my goodness.
but i told her abt i accompanying qah and all, she agreed with one condition.
my mother, her with her kirimness.
she kirim cheddar cheese, pizza base, mozzarella(haha) cheese.
dun mistake my (haha). i dunno how to spell.
pardon me.

then when i was eating, i saw this HOT eurasian guy.
he's from JUNYUAN SEC SCH.
the school where HE came from.
qah was like counting and saying that she could have acutally met HIM 4 years ago.
but too bad qah.
he was unpopular at that time.
UNKNOWN and shall never be KNOWN.
HAHAHAHA.

so i went to NTUC with qah and bought the cheese.
which was from denmark(danish)
qah was like saying.
OMG u bought danish product.
u are not suppose to be buying.
not my fault.
i wanna eat pizza, my dear.
then we went out of the NTUC.
a few steps out of NTUC, i remembered that i need to buy the base.
so i went in back and avoid the previous cashier cause it'll be embarassing.

after that we went toilet to do u-know-what.
haha
that is so not necessary for my post.

then we went on our separate ways.
i queued up for bus 3 which came on THE spot.
so i quickly naik the bus.
i wanted to take the bus but this mat suddenly cut in front of me.
so ungentleman.
till i realise he was rushing cause his gf was in front of me.
paiseh.

so here i am, back home.
safe and sound.
wanna eat sapsuka(haha) soon and then sleep cause i have tuition later and i need to concentrate and not sleep.
YEA.

oh wells.
juz went back to my past with this guy din.
we did not have anything going on.
seriously.
i got a crush on him.
but he got a crush on his best friend.
so triangle love.
but he didn't get it.
he didn't know i like him.
so the chapter is close cause there's this day that is the last straw.
he kept telling me abt his crush.
all the conversation was about him.
so then, i blocked him.
till this day.
-_-"
i know. so EMO wida.
i shuld not have done it.
but i juz realise that if i kept being by his side, i will hurt more.
so i shuld juz get away from it.
he's online now. but i'm not taking the risk.
and wadeva happen, czarina gotta keep her spirit high.

i juz read his blog.
he wants to become an architect.
wonderful.
juz great.
no future.
i know i'm so narrow-minded but what to do, singapore is not very big for architectures.
his another option is teaching but his passion lies on architecture.
so juz wish him all the best loh.
he can enter NUS.
that is like woaaah.
i dunno wad will happen to me lah.
saddiq and din enter NUS.
how about me?
NO future?
LoL.

my passion lies in singing.
one day without singing is impossible.
but i've never seriously share my "unique" voice with anyone before.
i always sing nastily and out of tune in the open.
but at home, i sang more seriously and my mom and dad says i got a good voice.
u shuld be the judge.
but why till now i never share my "unique" voice with anyone yet?
one reason is,
i'm phobia of audiences.
i scared that i'll forget my lines.
hmmm.
good reason? i hope so.

too bad malay channel, suria does not have "kampus anugerah"
if they have it, i will sure to join and u guys must support me kay?
vote for me. =))
*wadeva wida (rolls eyes)

klarh.
gtg.
wanna eat then sleep.

lalalalala (".)(:":)(.")

tic toc no it's the clock again at
5:35 PM

Thursday, March 02, 2006

the gurl who once made my life miserable and iritated has now changed my mind about her.
she's a gurl who needs time and another chance to adjust herself to her friend's situation.
i juz had the feeling now, she's alright, she's a great friend, now, better than one of my closest friends.
i do not wish to name her.
i do not wish to point out who she is.
it seems that one week, we've drifted apart.
it seems like we had nothing to talk about.
we dun used to have long and funny conversations anymore.
we dun used to be the way that we used to be like before.

well, nuthing particular EXCITING or WADEVA happen today.
i came early today and saw ghazali (gasps) and razif (gasps)
ouh wadeva.
both of them are lyk so last year.
but that'll not stop me from changing my mind about them. =))

and this message and also a WARNING.
for WHO THE HELL go and erase my duty roster that i wrote on the board, please dun even think about doing it again.
i will result to violence.
and i MEAN it!

i dun wanna post a long post today.
i have a few words before signing off.

- chesed; u are a totally great friend that i treasure. i do! u've been by my side after comp. club. and u dun mind waiting for me. i shall treasure u cause that kind of friend is difficult to find. ilu.
- atiqah; thanks for spending ur time with me. during recess, after school. u are a great friend for 3 years in a row. u put up with my oh-so-nonsense crushes and "omg, i'm going to die" remarks. i have to admit u are patient and i love ya. [p.s. sabar itu adalah separuh dari iman. =))]
- ameera; for one bus ride that is memorable to me and exciting and happy! it has been a long time i hung out with u. ur sarcastic remarks makes u the REAL u. hmm. and if u need someone to eat Long John Silver with, i'm FREE and french fries too. *winks*
- pei hsin & nafisah; thanks for the pics that u guys are gonna take today. pH, u are one NOISY woman. nafi, u are GREAT. u are my companion in 3/2. thanks for listening to my crushes and not get iritated by them. YAYness!
- naz; for being out of my life for a few days. thanks so much naz. even though we do not meet each other, at least we have something to talk and laugh about. i miss the times when u said, "i MALU", and ur laughter that fills or i shuld say, contaminated my brain. i still love u. =))

* thanks to all of this people who makes my day, today! =))

tic toc no it's the clock again at
6:12 PM